I was meeting him after many years. He came to the bus-stand and parked his bike in front of me. He was just like old times. A tough looking guy with a sensitive heart. We shook hands and I realized immediately that everything was not the same. With time, our closeness had also changed. We were more like strangers to each-other rather than two close friends meeting after a long time. I felt bad about it. After all he was my best mate during college. Maybe people would think that I was in love with him but I was not. I was in love with his friend. lol
We went to his house. His mom made a lovely tea for us. He took me out to dinner. We were happy to be with each-other but there was a silence. That silence was killing me. I felt suffocated. I wanted to tell him everything which I wanted to tell him for so many years. He said, 'You can tell me everything' but I was silent. I didn't even ask about his life. After few minutes, he told me everything. He was in love with a colleague. He always looked at her. He talked to her but never told three simple words - 'I love you'. Finally, he got an invitation from her - her wedding invitation card.
He told me that now he understands this world and it's tricks. He was seeing a friend in me but it was not the same for me. I wanted to be a kid who can hold his hand to cross a busy road. He leaned toward me and said to cross the road alone. He reminded me that I am not a kid any more. That time, I realized how can one feel happy and sad at the same time. Strange - Happy & Sad...
I asked him, 'Why didn't you tell her about your feeling'. Today I am asking same question to myself, 'why didn't I tell him that whatever happens, he will always be my Big B?'.
